2020-02-24 - You Want A What?

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : hey sweetheart

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Hey.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : miss you. how you doing

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I really am not sure. Not sleeping well at all. Been having nightmares since February 11th. And also my powers went crazy. I nearly burned an important file I was frustrated with. I'm in California, at my brother's.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : yeah, mine went crazy too. can't do stuff I used to be able to do. so I got the shit shocked out of me in a fight.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : glad you're out of town. de la Vega's

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : a little evil

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : What? What do you mean 'a little evil?'

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : kind of a long story? that I don't know all of. but basically we got some asshole running around who got into his head and messed him up.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : point is, glad you're safe.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Is there anything I can do to help? Should I come back to Gray Harbor? My abilities aren't as strong here, so I'm not accidentally setting things on fire.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : ...I also can do the shocking now. I shocked the hell out of Fincheleh. she was mad. lol

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : What on earth caused all this? Is Gohl free again or something?

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : thing is, nobody really knows. Gohl's grave is gone. like erased. Roen's trying to figure that out. So maybe something to do with him?

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : I'd love you to come back, but wait till I give the all clear, okay?

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : it's one less thing giving me an ulcer that you're out of town. even though I'm so frikkin lonely and horny.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : All right. My first nephew is due any day now, so I'll stay until Lynn has the baby. My brother is being hilariously freaked out about being a first-time dad.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : staying away from Izeleh too, maybe it's a dumb idea, I just... I'd never fucking forgive myself if either of you got hurt because of me. and of course de la Vega's not exactly in a loving mood. welp here I am whining at you, didn't want to do that.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : hah, just bet he is

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : We still need to have our talk.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : yeah, we do. the mishegoss of this town.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : miss you a lot. did I mention that?

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : You mentioned it once or twice yes. 😃 I hope you find a way to fix Javier. Please be careful, and safe.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : Alexander and Hya are gonna help. Roen's gonna help. Everybody's pulling together to help him. But I don't know if it's gonna work.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Are you sure you don't need me to come back? He and I don't know each other all that well but I do consider us friends.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : I...God, I need you. I miss you so bad my arms hurt from you not being in them.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : You have Isolde there. You don't need me in your arms. She's strong, stronger than me, likely.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : what? that's not how any of this works, baby

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Isn't it? You always have at least one of us you can be with. There is no reason for you to be alone.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : wish I had the right words. ain't a matter of just not being alone or who's stronger, which I don't think is a thing by the way. I love you. I need you. just how it is.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I love you too. I'm sorry I'm just...going through some stuff right now. I have some decisions I need to make soon.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : I know this is texting and all, but if you wanna talk about any of it, happy to listen

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : ....

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I'm not sure it won't freak you out or add more stress to what you already have.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : well shit, now I'm gonna freak out more if I don't know what it is

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Ok well, let me get it all out then.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : One month ago from today I turned 27. That might not sound important but, because of what happened in my past, it means a clock is ticking. I had a miscarriage 5 years ago. A future pregnancy will have a 20% chance of another one. And it goes up from there, the risk of losing it. I want a baby. Maybe not immediately, but within the next year, I need to start working towards that.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I'm not asking you to knock me up. I don't even know how you feel about kids or having them or being a father. I'd use a donor if it wasn't something you were ok with. I just need to know if you don't want to have a kid with me, then will you still want me if I have a kid, Does that make sense?

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : ...oh wow.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : sweetheart of course I'll still want you. anything else aside, of course I will. also the thought of you pregnant is kinda turning me on.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : I thought you never wanted a kid, what with the OCD and all, it's ...actually pretty awesome that you do now

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Don't answer that quick. This is a lot to consider. Take some time. I won't be offended or anything. I care about you and I want you to be happy, but I also want to be happy.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : It's my brother and his wife. They're having a boy, and because of a health condition, it will be their only child. And I just...I want a little girl, to name after my sister.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : yeah well believe me, I sure as hell can't answer if I want to be a father. but whether I'd want you? yeah. I can answer that. and it's yes. hell yes.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I'm glad to hear that. We're not the only ones involved though. You should probably talk to Javier when he's better, and Isolde, because it might be a deal breaker for them. Some people are weird like that.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : I mean. I kinda do want to be a father. whether it's actually a good idea or not is a whole different ball game.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : yeah. I will

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Just think on it, a few days at least. Don't make decisions in the moment. And you've got your hands full right now. I'll be back in town a few days after my nephew is born.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : Roen's always telling me not to make decisions too. you two are smart.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : I try to be. And I miss you. Go find Javier. Kick his ass back into being ...well I'm not sure he's ever been good, per se, but not outright evil.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : hah. I'm not so sure either. I miss you, katseleh. enjoy yourself in California, meet your new nephew.

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : Love you. Be safe. Talk to you soon.

(TXT to Rebecca) Itzhak : love you, baby. hope you don't mind I'm now going to go jerk off thinking about you. <3

(TXT to Itzhak) Rebecca : You're incorrigible!