2020-11-26 - Sunshine In A Bag

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : what the fuck is going on

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Hello, Itzhak. Are you well?

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : do not fucking bullshit me. where is he

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : In detox.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : alexander please. please do not fuck with me. where is he and what did you do

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I'm not fucking with you. He is in detox. I'm watching over him until he's clean, and then he's coming back home. You know this couldn't continue. He was going to fucking kill himself, or someone else was going to make sure he was caught being high as balls on duty. Or worse.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : he told me he was going to do this with you but that was months ago and he didn't say he was going to fucking vanish

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : He didn't know he was going to vanish. He would have told you if he'd known.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : so you literally came and kidnapped him, is this what you are telling me?

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Yes.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : let me talk to him

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : No. It will be about three or four days, and then he will come back.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : if you were hoping I'd be reasonable about this, you got another think coming

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I was hoping. But not really expecting. But listen. There's a reason loved ones don't get to visit people in early stages of detox. He's hurting, he's pissed off, and he very much wants to get out of here and take the edge off with a hit or two of whatever the fuck he's on. It's more than cocaine. If you talk to him and you don't take him home and let him get smashed, then he'll hate you as much as he hates me. If you do, then you're helping to kill him.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : yeah no shit he's pissed off, this was supposed to be something he asked you to do because he trusted you, and kidnapping ain't exactly a big trust builder

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : No. I know that. He will hate me after it's done. But he'll be clean. He needs to be clean right now.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : why didn't you ASK him? why didn't you tell ME?

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Because he's an addict. I've been asking him. But it's never the 'right time'. With an addict, that will always be the answer until he hits complete rock bottom, or someone presses the issue. Do you want him to lose everything just so he knows something has to change?

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : And I didn't tell you because he's going to hate me. If you helped, if you knew and didn't tell him, he'd hate you too.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : if you think you know everything, then tell me how he's gonna STAY clean, if he don't really want to be clean.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : That's a choice he's going to have to make for himself. But it's a choice he'll be /able/ to make if he's clean.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : And I don't know exactly what happened between him and Kelly, but if Monaghan decides to take revenge, at this point, all he has to do is arrange for someone he's bought to demand a drug test.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : he might not be the only one who hates you after this.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I know. That's okay.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : god fucking dammit it is NOT OKAY

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : It's worth it, then. If you want.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : no! that's not... I didn't mean it. I did mean it but

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I'm an adult, Itzhak. I knew that my choices would have consequences. It's okay.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : jesus fucking tapdancing christ. fuck. FUCK. I... just FUCK.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I'm confused. Why are you upset? I mean, I know, Ruiz. But if you're telling me that you hate me now, I'm trying to tell you that it's okay. I understand.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I don't want to hate you, goddammit Alexander, don't you get that I don't want to hate you

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I don't think that you want to hate me.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I gotta go. I have to tell Cavanaugh and I have to find if he's got any stashes I don't know about and I have to get rid of all the goddamn pills

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Thank you. I was hoping that you would.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : just...just tell him I love him, would you please? and, and that I'll be here when he's done. Joe too. we'll both be here.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Okay. I will. I'm sorry.