2020-12-29 - Eggshells

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Happy new year. 🙂

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : hey. yeah you too. full discloure I'm pretty fucking pissed off at you

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Oh. I'm sorry. Would you prefer I not text? It's okay if you would.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : shit, I don't know. I miss you. But Javier came home with rope burns on his wrists. I know he fucked you up, and you deserved it.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Yes. I deserved it.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : you did that wrong, dude. You did it for good reasons. but you did it all wrong, for a man like him.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I would have lost my ever loving mind too.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I did it the only way it could be done. He's an addict. He wasn't ever going to find the time until he lost everything. You, his job, every-fucking-thing, either to the addiction or whatever he was willing to do to fuel it.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I known a lot of addicts. A lot of the time, that's what they have to do, to get serious. Do I want to lose him? Of course I fucking don't. But...God, Alexander.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : It was ugly, it was mean, and it was wrong. I know that, Itzhak.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : don't get why you did it, then.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I don't want my friend to die. Or become the worst version of himself.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : and listen, you're wrong that it's the only way. You're wrong. I...I can't fucking argue about it with you anymore, you're smarter than me and you'll just talk your way around me. But you're wrong.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : All right.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : he's still clean, for now. I think.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Good.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : and you were right. he hates you.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Yes.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : and he's got every right to hate you. you know that.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Of course he does.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : and I don't fucking know what to do!

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I'm sorry. I should go. I hope you have a good year, Itzhak.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : no, look. don't go

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I don't mean to cause you pain.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I know. I know.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I just...look. I miss you. I miss being friends with you.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I miss being friends with you, too, Itzhak.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : Abildgaard tells me youse guys are hanging out with Seth a lot. Maybe sometimes I could join in.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Yeah. If you want. I don't imagine anyone would mind. Everyone likes you. 🙂

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : heh, I'm shocked as hell you and Seth Monaghan are getting along.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : jesus, the calves on him. they're like two cantaloupes wrestling.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I think we'll get along until I get in his way, or he gets in mine. He's not malicious.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : nah. I stayed away from him, but, goddammit, he's not bad. at least when he's not working.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : He's not. Dangerous. But not bad.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I even kinda like him, the big dolt. I guess Vic's dating him? I heard that somewhere

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I think they are exploring the possibility of an amorous liaison.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : she had the worst crush on Cavanaugh for a while. it was actually pretty hilarious

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Was it?

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : shit, I miss you. I don't know if stuff can be like it was. I miss you, and I love Javier, I mean I love him like I didn't know it was possible to love. this is hard.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : It's all right. I don't want you to feel bad. Or cause trouble between you and him. If I could text you sometimes, that would be nice. But if not, it's okay.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : yeah. I think we could do that. I think that'd be okay.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I don't know if I forgive you, but...I could do that. I'd like that.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Okay. 🙂 I'm glad.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : okay... I'm...glad too. I think. I got a lot of emotions over here, Alexander.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : I like your emotions. I have a lot, too. 🙂

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : jesus, if you didn't, we never would have got along

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Probably. 🙂 The minds of people without many emotions tend to be boring.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : okay, I gotta go. I'll try to ...I dunno. I'll try to something.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : Enjoy your new year, Itzhak. That's all you need to do. And don't die, of course.

(TXT to Alexander) Itzhak : I can't die. I got shit to do.

(TXT to Itzhak) Alexander : 🙂