2020-06-02 - Much A-Yelling About An Asylum

(TXT to Itzhak) August : hey.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : how you holding up

(TXT to August) Itzhak : oy. just. oy

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I'm sorry man. is she moving back to Cali?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I haven't told anybody, I hardly know what to say. yeah. moving back to make up with her family and have a baby. I'm happy for her.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : can you tell I'm lying

(TXT to Itzhak) August : you can be happy for her and still upset about it. that's a thing. (I know all about that.)

(TXT to August) Itzhak : kinda like, well, what did I think was gonna happen. you know?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : do you get tired of me whining at you? I get tired of being whiny

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I do not get tired of it, and it's not whining. it's you telling me what's going on with you, which I want to know. so that's fine.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I guess there's an angle of that, yeah. like, if she was serious about having a kid, well, would she have it here, after what happened? no.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : anyways her moving on with her life in another direction isn't your fault, so. nothing wrong with enjoying what you could have while you did, either.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : christ it hurts though.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : yeah, I bet it does. believe me if I thought I could make it hurt less, I would.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : speaking of which. my healing. it's all fucked up now.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ??? fucked up how?

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I need to check with Finch, maybe Lilith, see if it happened to them too.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : it doesn't just make the wounds go away. they just heal faster.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ...no shit? like I can't do some stuff anymore too?

(TXT to Itzhak) August : yeah. though...I wonder if this is because of him. That guy we ran across in the Asylum.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : fucker wasn't just some powerful guy who can use Glimmer. it's like he was Glimmer.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : what guy

(TXT to Itzhak) August : keene called him 'the Doctor'. so did that rotting zombie which used to be Easton's uncle.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : first time we saw him was on that trip none of us could remember. he just seemed like some guy. this time he was like, Dr. Manhattan, or some shit.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : not naked with his business all hanging out, but that powerful.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : okay hang on wait start over, what trip where

(TXT to Itzhak) August : our trip to the asylum, the one none of us could remember. where we got the books. that was...a few months back, now. we went again, to get megan keene back. had to run for our fucking lives.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : are you telling me you went to the asylum again and you went without me? is this what you are saying to me, Roen?

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I sort of assumed de la vega told you.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : well this is now very awkward. hang on going to text him right now so he knows you're going to yell at him.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : WHY WOULD ANYBODY TELL ME ANYTHING

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I'm going to end both of you I swear to Christ

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I told Ellie! ...so she could call you if we couldn't get back.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : THAT DOESNT HELP

(TXT to August) Itzhak : okay okay look I'm sorry I'm just a little fuckin overwrought rn

(TXT to Itzhak) August : no look if you came to me like HEY WE DECIDED TO GO TO A FUCKING DANGEROUS PLACE AND A GOD TOLD US TO GET THE FUCK OUT AND ALMOST DISSOLVED ISABELLA I'd be mad too

(TXT to Ruiz) August : I didn't realize you hadn't told Itzhak we went to the Asylum so if he's texting you in all caps or yelling at you in person my apologies.

(TXT to August) Ruiz : Nope, hasn't said a word to me about it.

(TXT to Ruiz) August : okay well. incoming.

(TXT to August) Ruiz : Why would I tell him? He fucking worries. Last thing he needs is another thing to worry about.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : WELL NOW IM FUCKING MAD AGAIN

(TXT to August) Itzhak : Jesus h christ, after the thing with the xenos???

(TXT to Itzhak) August : your anger is permitted. though in his defense it's like not telling a loved one you're going for a CT scan to check for cancer, you know? why make them twist

(TXT to August) Itzhak : eeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ...he totally would not tell me if he had to get a CT scan, too

(TXT to Itzhak) August : please note I am a terrible liar and Ellie can see through me like a the cleanest window so I don't bother

(TXT to August) Itzhak : De la Vega has the best stone face in town, the mamzer

(TXT to Itzhak) August : well. that's true. anyways, we're all fine. a little banged up. scared out of our fucking minds because we had to run from dr. manhattan

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ...okay but now I can't stop thinking about a giant blue dong

(TXT to Itzhak) August : see? feeling better already.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : on a more serious note do NOT go to that fucking Asylum

(TXT to August) Itzhak : if I catch Sandushka about to go by himself, no promises

(TXT to Ruiz) August : I guess that's reasonable. I just have no ability to lie, so I just tell Ellie everything. she'll know I'm not telling her something, why not just cut to the chase.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : just rat him out to everyone.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : who else went? I need to know who I gotta yell at

(TXT to Itzhak) August : me, alexander, ruiz, bennie, isabella, joe, ignacio.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : IGNACIO???????

(TXT to Ruiz) August : I'm ratting out everyone, btw.

(TXT to August) Ruiz : I didn't lie. I just didn't tell him shit I didn't want him worrying about.

(TXT to Ruiz) August : you know that lying via omission is a thing, right?

(TXT to Itzhak) August : yyyyeah let me text him too

(TXT to August) Ruiz : Ah, fuck off, Roen

(TXT to Ignacio) August : hey I might have accidentally assumed Itzhak knew we were going to the Asylum and he might be pissed we didn't bring him so just prepapre yourself.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : NONE OF YOU ARE FREE FROM SIN

(TXT to Itzhak) August : isn't that a christian thing

(TXT to August) Itzhak : yeah but it's also a dril thing

(TXT to Ruiz) August : no judgment, if I had the ability to omit things without looking guilty I'd do it too

(TXT to Itzhak) August : oh, the 'there is no difference between good and bad things' guy?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : that guy, thats not the point, the point is YOU FUCKERS.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : okay look, we'll make it up to you. obviously we now have to figure out how to stay safe from that asshole.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : so. that's a thing to brainstorm. and we need to show bennie more about how to do all this shit because she seems kind of...untaught.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : she healed me up real good, but yeah, it seemed to take it out of her.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : back to my earlier point. all that shit I did, with the aliens? I don't think I can do that anymore. I mean I could still trigger resorption, I think. and stop a really bad disease. but I can't just snap my fingers and a wound vanishes.

(TXT to August) Ruiz : Nice to hear you admit it.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I dream about the queen now

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I miss her. and Solomon. and that's so fucked up. I hate it

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I hear the one that was in...Bates. I was listening to her before she died.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : you were him, he was you. kind of. but maybe we fixed it a little.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I hate him, too

(TXT to Itzhak) August : honestly, can't blame you.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : he...something must have happened to him. to make that his life's work.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : what a complete schmuck

(TXT to Itzhak) August : maybe. I mean, he was you, I'm inclined to cut him some slack.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I kind of wonder more about me, but there wasn't much of him there. which maybe says something about what I'd have been like if I'd stayed in? not sure.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : stayed in, like, made you all...compressed like that? like a low-quality MP3

(TXT to Itzhak) August : yeah. or maybe he was just hollowed out. not totally sure.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : you went to the fershunken asylum without me?????

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I mean stayed in the military. he was career for sure. but there wasn't much of him there...there. no real indication of anything about him.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Sure as fuck did, peaches

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I'll just assume my personality is so big it shoved out his so we could fix this bullshit. that feels better.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : don't flirt with me, I'm mad at you and you're in trouble

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Peaches is flirting? Since when?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : none of that shit makes any goddamn sense. also de la Vega isn't even sorry and he's a jerk

(TXT to Itzhak) August : look just both of you be more careful, okay? I'm not going to be able to patch you up like before. not that you ever let me you big baby.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : Since...since... LOOK THATS NOT THE POINT

(TXT to Itzhak) August : did you think he would be??

(TXT to August) Itzhak : oh my fucking god that is so not true, I let you heal me all the time

(TXT to Itzhak) August : more like I guilt you into it and then you let me heal you

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Okay. I'm not sure what the point is, then. That we didn't take you with us? No fucking way.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : Why. The fuck. NOT. I could have been there. I could have helped

(TXT to August) Itzhak : that's...kind of true

(TXT to Itzhak) August : just saying if you're not in a position to say no I am always going to so cope.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : yeah yeah, I have come to a place of radical acceptance about that, where radical acceptance means I yell at you

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Or died. And fuck that shit.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : ME, DIED??? YOU COULD HAVE DIED, YOU YUTZ

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : You need to turn off your fucking caps lock, baby

(TXT to Itzhak) August : yell all you want, you're still getting healed.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : THEY ARE ALL CAPS ON PURPOSE BECAUSE I AM YELLING AT YOU

(TXT to August) Itzhak : YOU ARE NOT FUCKING HELPING

(TXT to Itzhak) August : woah where did that--oh. who are you yelling at. Alexander? One of the de's?

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : You want to yell, huh? You want to fucking yell, you get your goddamn ass over here, I'm way better at fucking yelling than you are.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : oh we'll just fucking see about that

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I'm yelling at de la Vega and fucked up the swipe but listen

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I am all ears.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : you may be some hotshot sniper slash sexy police captain asshole but I'm a Jew from New York, you don't know from yelling

(TXT to August) Itzhak : why. why did you leave me out

(TXT to Itzhak) August : for my part, it wasn't leaving you out. please don't think it was. it was de la Vega who wanted to go after Megan, Alexander who wanted to go after Alice. at the end of the day I figure they may have wanted to make sure if something did go wrong, there was someone out there who could come and get us.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : What?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ...that's... ah fuck I'm gonna cry.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : there's no one else who's as strong as you with movement. Ellie wouldn't be able to do it alone. you, Lil, Ellie, Byron--we needed people like you on the other side to come and get us. and we just about did need that.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : (...)

(TXT to August) Itzhak : yep I'm crying. jesus. how am I supposed to lose you and de la Vega and Cavanaugh and de Santos all at once, Roen?

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : I'm not a hotshot anything anymore, querido.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : That was a long fucking time ago. And I'm sorry we didn't bring you. But I'm also not sorry.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : (...) yeah. no. I mean, yeah. I just...

(TXT to Itzhak) August : (...) same way it could happen to me, when you guys go do something without me, because you need me to come for you if it gets bad.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : okay. fair. not very fair but life ain't fair, is it

(TXT to Itzhak) August : it's not, no. and trust me, I want nothing more than to be fair to you. but I figure if it was anyone's to tell, it was de la Vega's.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : Marshall being Lost, just. you know.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : yeah. yeah you're right. You're always right, it gets real old

(TXT to Itzhak) August : sorry.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : no, look, I'm sorry, I'm kinda messed up in the head

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : So I wait for you like a lonely house till you will see me again and live in me. Till then my windows ache.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : I know.

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : (...) fuck, making me cry. I love you, krasavets.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : look, after this last couple of weeks. that time with all those torn up bodies, and reabsorbing that thing in you, and then this...godlike...whatever, which just dissolved shit by thinking about it? I'm messed up too. so it's fine. I get why you're mad.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Yo tambien te amo. I've got to deal with some shit here, so we'll talk later, yeah?

(TXT to Ruiz) Itzhak : yeah. I'll pick up stuff for dinner.

(TXT to Itzhak) Ruiz : Sounds good, drive safe.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : (I'm only a little sorry about being right all the time.)

(TXT to August) Itzhak : why can't WE dissolve stuff just by thinking about it? that would be handy

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I don't think he was human. so that's no doubt part of why.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : you know what's messed up? after you melted the queen, I don't think I'm all the way human anymore, either

(TXT to August) Itzhak : I couldn't tell Bex I'd have a baby with her. and I'm glad now. Because what if...what if there's something wrong with me, you know? What if she got pregnant and a xeno grows in her?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : ...okay, well I sound like a lunatic

(TXT to Itzhak) August : nah, not crazy. I was kind of worried about even doing that. I just, couldn't think of anything else.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I mean, I can check. if you want. we could make sure that's not a problem. but maybe it's also just the queen's voice in your head.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : maybe. maybe it's her ghost. can a xeno have a ghost? wouldn't that just be my luck, haunted by a ghost xeno.

(TXT to August) Itzhak : check me. I have to know one way or the other

(TXT to Itzhak) August : I don't see why not. she wasn't just some parasite, the one I heard. she was way more than that. she loved Bates.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : alright. next time I see you, my range is a bit short. unless you're over at de la Vega's right now?

(TXT to August) Itzhak : next time I see you. which won't be too long. thanks for letting me yell at you. and sorry. just. fuck.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : it's okay. yelling helps. and I don't mind being yelled at. better me than someone else.

(TXT to Itzhak) August : sorry about Rebecca, though. I know you care about her a lot. sometimes lives just go separate ways.